Part 2 Trying to Keep Um From Leaving!

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Nov
5

After the texted that they wanted to quit I sent a stream of messages. I’m going to tone down what I really said. I basically said that If you want to quit then quit but I don’t want to read anymore text or talk about it. I have said what I have to say about it and encouraged numerous times before the start of classes up to now. Only call or text for support. That’s what im here for, not to tell you what you want to hear.

I love analogies so of course I had to use one. Most of you will say that it was terrible and wrong but I don’t care because it was my thought!! I thought about the many pro athletes that get tricked into having kids. I thought about the rock star that was given oral sex and the woman injected herself with the sperm and got millions. I hope I would never put myself in a position like that but, if some tried to trick me like that before I reached my goals I would move to another part of the world and keep training.

Of course I know I have nothing. It was just to show the type of mindset I have. I told them that I have a goal and nothing or no one is going to keep me from achieving it. I don’t care what it feels or looks like. In the end I will win because I won’t except anything less. Not saying I won’t lose a lot of battles but, winning the war is what matters.

I have an older sister who is doing an online RN nursing program. She is not married, works full time, lives only with her two sons. One is in his first year of high school and the younger one has a different learning style. With bills, not having a class room setting and spending more time than a normal parent helping with homework is very stressful. Even though her program is not as hard as my other relative, these other factor play a bigger toll. She cries and keeps going because she knows that it could be a whole lot worse, but will soon get better. Master Lloyd always says “Things are Never as Good as they seem and things are Never as Bad as they seem.”

I noticed a similarity in a spoiled friend this summer. They were in a place where they could save a marriage that they destroyed, but they were unable to be consistent enough to do the hard work that was needed. They were also the youngest child that had always been the best in everything. In school they were valedictorian. In a great career they are the boss ect. at a young age. They said they use to look at it as a blessing that everything came to them so easily, but now they see it as a curse. They said they knew that they were losing the person that treated them better than anyone in life, and would never find another like them. They said they had tried over and over but just didn’t have the ability to consistently work that hard for anything. They never learned too because everything came so easily.

I wise person emailed me yesterday after reading the blog. “Certainly anything worth having comes with sweat and tears. However, I’ve also learned that today’s youth do not have what I and definitely the previous generations had, physically or mentally. Suicide rates are at an all time high for Africian-Americans. Because they are spoiled, (as so many others) they do not understand struggles. Therefore, I’m sure it’s painfully difficult for them. You wouldn’t understand that because you’ve seen struggles so many times before. They just need to get to a point where they realize what they want out of life and how bad they want it. You can encourage but also support. They need to make decisions today; they can live with tomorrow, with no regrets, on their own. Then they can’t blame anyone but themselves.”

Consequently, I texted my relative last night letting them know that I loved them but have to be tough. I just didn’t want them to look back on this and regret it when it’s too late. They didn’t respond to any of my messages yesterday, but did this afternoon after I was transparent in text this morning. Text said I had a moment and have many days I wish I could disappear. Not from one realm like school but from everything, but I will pray, praise, and worship and get things done. After I did that I felt like a new person and am now finished with today’s Blog. Sorry that its long again they will be back short next week!lol I hope!